We spend our time and money trying to become someone we’re not. Running from reality and taking flight into a fantasy. I remember my fantasy. I would pretend being Muhammad Ali. I would spend hours shadow boxing in the mirror saying.
“You ain’t that pretty.”
”But I’m a bad MAN!” I would say to myself.
That’s an example of the innocence of youth.
But who knew I would spend the rest of my life living in that fantasy? That’s what people do. We create a false image of ourselves all in an effort to accept ourselves. This leads to a false sense of pride where we hide our low self-esteem. An example, acting a certain way in the neighborhood to maintain an image. I was caught up in that growing up. Looking back I have to ask myself, “Really?”
“I’m from Avondale and we ain’t no punks!” I would say to myself.
If a person can’t be who God intended them of being because of fear from others may think or say then that person is a punk!
One of the most frightening things I ever faced in life was when I realized I’m not who I thought I was. How did I begin to learn the real me? I turned to the one who made me: GOD. The road to self-will never makes sense unless we use the map God drew for us.
Rick Warren quoted in his Purpose Driven Life Book: “You were made by God and for God and until you understand that life will never make sense.”
We must learn to examine ourselves. God likes to get to the exact nature of our actions.
Proverbs 16:2: “People may be pure in their own eyes, but the LORD examines their motives.”
Justifying and rationalizing God don’t do. Discovering how to take an honest self-appraisal is to discover ourselves the way God see us. It’s a process.
I’ve had many high points in my life: having kids, getting married, and watching my mother age so gracefully to name a few. But what’s the most rewarding of them all? It’s becoming the man GOD intended me to be. It’s beyond my wildest dreams. I’ve never imagined my life becoming so full. And it’s all because I’ve learned to accept me as I am.
Because of God I’ve been introduced to…the real ME.